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Monday, April 27, 2009

Soccer Tryouts; Day One

First, I'd just like to say sorry I haven't been posting. I've been using all my spare time practicing for soccer really (which I'm not so sure that paid off yet).

Okay so their was some pros and cons.
Con- I sucked! Like in Capital letters - SUCKED! I'm not like amazing anyways, but this was worse than usual. I don't even deserve to look at a soccer ball. 
Pro- Mostly everyone was sucking it up (not necessarily as bad as me though)
Pro- I got a better near the end, but was still bad. 
Pro/Con- While doing sprints and jogging I was kind of in the middle, not the fastest, not the
slowest.
Pro- I know of five people who just left and quit after sprits!! Apparently more than that though,
because we all counted at first when we were doing stretches and their were 32, then when we did
stretches before we left their was only 24! Their are 3 girls who couldn't come today though,
but will be their wednesday. So that's only like 27! She's keeping 25, maybe she'll just keep us all!
Hopefully. If not, I think I would fell 10x worse if I don't make it and only 2 people get cut!
Pro- When I got home, I was better than I ever been! Maybe I'll be better on Wednesday!

So wish me luck! Even though there is a good change I won't make it, but still a good chance I will
because of so little people! AHHH I'm going crazy :)
Sorry I haven't been posting, will soon.

Monday, April 20, 2009

New Puppy - Nameless, Suggestions?



((These are fuzzy because they came from a video))

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Random- Need them for later :)


........._................_............... * 
You're my shining star. 


______________________________ 
Edward Cullen can sparkle. 
............What can you do? 
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I was born to tell you I love you. 
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.....iNSANiTY. 
It keeps things interesting. 

-¯-_._-¯-_._-¯-_._-¯-_._-¯-_._-¯-_ 
|..You and me;; making a memory...| 
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*......*......*......* 
Make-A-Wish 
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.....................Sometimes I Think I am Genius. 
Then I Realize I've Already Seen This Episode of Jeopardy. 
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 ° o . O . o °  ° o . O . o °  ° o . O . o °  ° o . O . o °  
. . . .. .. . . . . . . ..:: I Sorta Kinda Love You Alot ::. 
 ° o . O . o °  ° o . O . o °  ° o . O . o °  ° o . O . o ° 

Haa Funny Videos From Youtube (Mad TV really)



Good Morning All of the Female Gender

How was your slumber? Mine was fantastic. 
I hope your day is wonderful!
You should tell about it  :)

Friday, April 17, 2009

I'm Addicted...

To reading Fan Fiction.
I would post, but i gotta go read more.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Today-
Fun.
Tcap.
Juice Boxes.
Uncrustables.
Volly Ball.
High Fives.
Dancing.
Hanging Out with Deni, Katey, Ashley, Ariel, Trevor, KYLE, and AMY.
Thumb/arm wrestling.
Freeze out . . When it's not cold.
Singing.
Fun. 

P.S just so you know, I'm not mad at Austin anymore.
I didn't really mean what I said either, just being a meanie :(

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Blah.

I’m all alone and I’m kind of, sort of scared. Earlier I heard this sound, it was like if a phone vibrates on a table 10x as loud. My dogs have been barking, and like I said, I’m alone. I have nothing to do, and I just feel lonely, so that doesn’t really help.
At the moment I’m kind of mad at Austin. While I’m here all bored with nothing to do, I’ve been staying up so I could talk to him tonight like I always do. Well he hasn’t been talking to me, because he’s hanging out with other people, which I understand. Well two hours ago he says in an hour or two we were going to sleep. Well apparently I can’t talk to him anyways because, well you don’t need the details. The point is he always leaves those minor details out. Austin isn’t really a man of his words though, so It’s not like I can be disappointed. 
Ugh... I could have had the chance to be asleep already, but now when I actually try, I can’t.

I hate people. All people.

Okay, not really . . . but still!

Let’s see ... Updates:

-Friday with Carson. Well After school we walked to the Mexican restaurant, ate, and then went to my house. We played some wii, soccer, watched the movie Yes Man, and just hung around and talked. She is so hilarious and it was so much fun!
Ha! We decided to be immature and prank call some people. One of us had the idea to call Amy, when she didn’t answer we waited to leave a message. She is so stupid! This is basically how her voice mail went . . . “Hey this is Amy, and this is my voice mail . . . so you shouldn’t be talking because you’d be like hey and you’d just be stupid because it’s just my voice mail. Just leave a message and I might call you back . . . okay I will! So yeah. . . leave me a message I love you guys. Byeeeee”
And her Amy voice made it even more stupid.
Some how we called Kyle too. He answered. Like I said, Carson is like the funniest person I know. I was cracking up. Kyle on the other hand was just like “Oh”, “Okay”, “Yeah”, and being really quite and boring. Usually when you prank call some one they either don’t answer, hang up, or joke around with you. This summer Carson and I prank called him and he talked to us for like an hour, just being happy as can be. He use to always be happy and fun. Now he’s just different. He always seems depressed and unhappy. He doesn’t talk much and it’s just . . . odd. Five months ago he was the complete opposite. I don’t know what happen. In a way it’s good and a way it’s bad. It’s good, I guess, because there’s no way I could ever like him now, I can’t even be friends with someone like that! It’s bad because, well he seems all depressed all the time! There has to be a reason. I guess I’ll never know since I don’t talk to him though. Which brings up a little side story. . . 
Well a couple weeks ago, yall know how I mentioned I was talking to him and he was talking about still liking me and making a mistake, blah blah blah. Well I don’t know if I ever mentioned that he broke up with Amy, I might have. He was telling people he was thinking about getting back with me, and all that good stuff. Well for those couple days he was talking to me, but I think he felt a little shut down by me, and just kind of stopped. The next thing I know, he’s back with her. 

In other news. . . I talked to Krista today. She texted me and was like “Omg I miss you” and I replied “Omg thanks for calling me or something . . . Not!” (She moved, I don’t know if I’ve said that) she then “im sry” Yeah, then I was just kind of over it, and we talked. She was with one of her new friends, named Jamie! Apparently she has two new friends named Jamie, and I don’t know any other Jamies, well girls. She also has this new boyfriend named Baily. Her and her friend Jamie was saying she’s actually pretty popular and a lot of guys like her. I’m not so sure if that’s true though because, Krista has a past of lying and well most people who that was true for wouldn’t actually say it.  Who knows. . .

Well, I’m getting kind of tired, and I now have no reason to stay up, nor do I want one, I’m kind of happy I’m going to sleep now. So goodnight. I hope everyone has a nice day tomorrow. Well, most people.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Yay :)

Tomorrow Carson is coming over :)

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Isn't The Wii Suppose To Be Fun?

At the very moment I have a head ache and I just recently got over the feeling of wanting to throw up. I'm not sick. It's from crying. 

After I got out of the shower, I heard my mom and Howard playing wii. After I got dressed and everything, I went out to join. They were playing Tennis. At one point I was laughing while saying "Ha you're losing" to howard. He gets mad over every thing. He's like a little kid. He just stopped and said "I don't even want to play anymore." and so on. Apparently to him that's putting him down, and my mom thinks I was being smart. It's not my fault Howard has to be all pathetic and not be able to act like an adult. 
Then my Mom was in her mood, half yelling at me about how I'm always smarting off and making seem like my fault we weren't having fun. It's always my fault. No matter what it is. At least that's how I feel. I can never make them happy, I always do things wrong, I just feel like such a bad person and a bad daughter.
I had already been crying to myself and then tried to dry it up so I could go throw my trash away and come back, but then that's when my mom started the whole thing about me always smarting off and making me seem like the bad guy, the problem. Then I started crying again and saying I didn't do anything wrong and how everyone always makes it seem like I do, and such. As I was saying something she said "Look your getting smart with me right now!" then I made the remark "No, I'm not! I'm just trying to defend myself I haven't done anything! I never do." 
Well, I guess I was getting to her because then she started crying and asking if I hated her. I really didn't, don't know if I still completely do understand, why she thought that. I said no of course I didn't she hadn't done anything (which I guess she kinda did, but not really! Nothing to make me hate her! Gosh.) We were talking about this, both crying, she thinks I hate her  and said, "What, do you just want go live with your Dad? Is that what you want? I'm just about ready to be by myself again." 
Secretly, I would rather be at my Dad's, but for two reasons I don't. One, I do love my mother very much and I couldn't leave her. I know she really does love me when it comes down to it and that would hurt her too much. and Two, I don't even know if my Dad would want me. 
I just keep it all inside and never let it out.  
So much of the time, I feel unwanted and like a burden. Like above, I feel I can never do anything right. Deep down I know they love me, I just don't feel loved by anyone (well except Austin, but he's my boyfriend, you should feel loved by your own family!)

I don't even want anyone to say anything about this, I just wanted to say it. I don't like talking to people.  

**EDIT**
By the way, my parents really are good to be. I guess it's just more of an I always feel like a disappointment and I wouldn't love myself thing.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Baseball!

Today I went to a baseball game of 3-4 year olds.
There was my brother Eli and my cousin Ethan on one team, and my cousin Lucus on the other.
It was hilarious.
When Eli hit the ball it went toward third base. He ran for the ball. Finally he ran towards first and made it.
Lucus hit the ball and started running. He was going toward second base and was about to get tagged out. Then he started running in cirlces and finally made it to second. Then he kept running to third and got out.
I hung out with Katie, which is my uncle's wife's sister.
It was fun.

My new favorite song is Mad by Ne-Yo.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Did Someone Say. . . Work out?

Well I just spent an hour working out - - - Sorta.

I ran/walked 2 1/2 miles (Mostly walked cause I just ate and it hurt to run)
Don't worry, I punished myself for not running. As I walked I had these small weights doing various things, and holding them straight out. I felt the burn eventually.
I did a couple sprint like things (i was on a tread mill...) and some jogging. 

Then I did some stretches, sit-ups, and leg lifts. By the time I was tired, because I had just been running. So as I counted it would go something like this. . . 1 soccer team, 2 soccer team, 3 soccer team, etc... 

I did drink a bunch of water, that was good. lol

It felt good in the end. 

I think I can handle this everyday, although my running will get more intense... boo.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Risk it All or Nothing

Okay so no more camp.
Instead I'm trying out for soccer.
But it sucks we have try-outs, because normally everyone is automatically on the team, but this year to many people signed up.
It's not till summer, but wish me luck anyways! :)